LOCKDOWN RELEASE

Lockdown Release

It’s all change again, as the months of solitary lockdown in one place, give way to travel and company. The ground shifts again and we negotiate our way to a new new normal, with face masks and the opportunity for a hug within a bubble. Since the beginning of lockdown, I have been living in…

where-does-racism-live-in-me

Where Does Racism Live in Me?

Next baby steps towards addressing unconscious racism Last week I found myself writing about the automatic denial and defensiveness I saw in myself when I was presented with an opportunity to work on discovering how racism might live in me. This response, I later discovered, is typical for a white person. Apparently, many of us…

Lamp-Lit Heart of Compassion

Lamp-Lit Heart of Compassion

My heart is full. I  write this in a fully mindful and awake state still feeling the buzz of the Members Weekend coursing through my body – it’s an energy thing, not from the coffee I had this morning but it feels similar! and I feel such gratitude flowing out from my lamp-lit heart; the…

mindful immersion

Mindful Immersion

Recently I have become aware of activities that I do that become a complete immersion, away from my habitual, incessant thinking patterns. Anything that is powerful enough to enable me to become totally present and not drown in my ruminations about the past, worries about the future and self-criticism comes along like a sigh of…

A Bit Like a dream

A Bit Like a Dream

    Life at the moment feels a bit like a dream, with the days falling through me. I have been practicing a lot because we have been facilitating the MSc year end retreat. This is great, as Choden and Kristine are co-facilitating. This means that when I am not teaching myself I get to…

Is it just me?

Is it just me?

There is a main road fairly near my house which I generally only notice when there’s a westerly wind. Today, its silence is audible. Since lockdown took hold, I’m feeling a great stillness; a stillness that is perhaps always there but goes unnoticed most of the time; like the space between the cars, between sounds,…

Rainbows

Rainbows

My dear auntie Jean in London has been sending me photos of rainbows she encounters on her daily walks; rainbows drawn on the pavements, pinned in windows and hung on gates; a spontaneous phenomenal creative response to the personal, local, national and global crisis we find ourselves in. The images themselves appear as symbols of…

Reconciling Differences

Reconciling Differences

I am struck by contrast in my life at the moment.   On a day to day basis, I experience a peaceful, retreat like existence. I practice and teach sessions of meditation; mindfulness, compassion and insight. I walk the dogs by the river in this beautiful isolated valley. I work at my computer contributing to…

distractions, distractions

Distractions, distractions

This week I have been noticing how easily I am getting distracted. It’s not surprising; I work from home which can sometimes blur the boundary between work and the demands of housekeeping; just going to get myself a cup of tea can send me down a route which involves feeding the cat, walking the dog,…